Jenna said…

Posted March 21, 2008 by itismark
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Lately Jenna has had quite the imagination and has had all kinds of things come out of her mouth. Just this afternoon she walked up to me and said, “My ear hurts.” To which I responded. “Why does it hurt Jenna?” She said, “There was a bee in my room and it flew in my ear and now it is moving in my body. That is why my ear hurts.”

And then there was last night when I sang the song Jesus Loves Me which has the words…For the Bible tells me so…..after the song ended Jenna looked up at me and said, “Daddy my Bible doesn’t talk to me.”

The mind and voice of a two year old is truly amazing.

Birds Eye View

Posted March 7, 2008 by itismark
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Ok, I am sitting in my office on a cool and cloudy day trying to find the motivation to work when there is no one else in the office. Suddenly there is a honking of horns from the street corner below and I quickly get distracted by the flow of traffic. Yes, there is an intersection just outside where two one way streets meet with a stop light to direct the flow of traffic. From my high perch I can see that the light is stuck on green……although I know what is happening the cars from both sides are confused and randomly getting mad at the cars from the other direction. They both cannot understand the actions of the other because they lack the big picture. The cars with the green light cannot figure out why they are getting cut off when they have the right of way. While the cars with the red light are trying to figure out how to get through the light.

After several minutes of watching I noticed that just as the people in the cars understood what was happening with the stuck traffic light, they went through the intersection and then the next set of drivers approached the light without the knowledge that the light was stuck. While this confusion and near miss accidents could have been avoided if each driver had been able to see the big picture.

This made me stop and think that so much of the problems that we face in life could be easily overlooked if only we could see life with a Birds Eye View!

I Want to Beleive in Santa

Posted December 12, 2007 by itismark
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Sunday after church we went to the mall and did our grocery shopping a Jumbo! Yes, you can buy your groceries at the mall here in Chile. Anyway, Santa Clause was at the grocery store and Rachel and Jenna went to talk to him.

Later that afternoon I was explaining to Rachel that Santa Claus is not real and that he is a guy dressed up in a costume. After about a 3 minute explanation Rachel interrupted me and said, “But Daddy, I want to believe in Santa Claus. Can’t you just let me believe?” I tried!

Big Fat Lady

Posted November 27, 2007 by itismark
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As I was walking to school today with Rachel I asked her to clarify who she was talking about in a conversation we were having. Rachel said, “Daddy, she is the BIG…Fat…lady.” I guess I should have the politically correct talk with Rachel so that she understands!

Another quote I ran across today at Idea Sandbox that I really feel is useful for everyday life is about understanding the real problem! How much of life do we spend trying to find solutions, without really looking to see if we understand the real problem?  “If you really understand a problem, solutions come easy; solutions tend to suggest themselves. If you’r blocked on a problem, chances are you have it framed in such a way that no solutions appear.” From Jack’s Notebookby Gregg Fraley

“Santa Claus is Real” said Rachel

Posted November 23, 2007 by itismark
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So my conversation with my Rachel, my five year old, went something like this:

Rachel: Daddy…when does halloween happen?
Me: Why do you want to know?
Rachel: Because spooky things happen on halloween.
Me: Spooky things…what kind of spooky things?
Rachel: You know…ghosts and things like that.
Me: Are ghosts real?
Rachel: No Daddy, ghosts are pretend.
Me: Ahh…ok.

Me: Rachel is Santa Claus real? [Trying to change the subject]
Rachel: Yes Daddy, last year I went to the mall with Gramps and Nana and Santa was there. He is real because I saw him and sat on his lap.
Me: Does Santa Claus do anything?
Rachel: You ask him for things and he brings you presents on Christmas!
Me: hmmmmm [I might need to have a Father - Daughter talk soon!]

So what actually goes on in the head of a five year old is beyond me, but she started believing in Santa Claus when she was two years old and saw him for the first time at the mall in Concepcion, Chile!

R.I.P. Junk Car

Posted November 21, 2007 by itismark
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Junk Car, a Hyundai H100, quickly departed from this world on the 17th of November.  A small thud, a puff of grey smoke, and a steamy exhaust pipe was his final contribution to this world as he succumbed to his fate.

JC is survived by Mark and Amanda Essenmacher who knew him as best as an unreliable piece of white trash, Rachel and Jenna who were convinced that all of his wired noises and frequent trips to the ‘car doctor’ excessive and beyond excuse, and Megan who first experienced what gas fumes were from confines of the back seat!  

He modeled his name well and had many dollars invested in him as he aged, but never seemed to return any favors when it came time for a trip, even the shortest of trips to the grocery store. He will forever be remembered as JC and will be remember forever as a car that received, but didn’t give back!

Well JC was not eager to share his religious beliefs with those closest to him it is assumed that he never found peace during his life. I say that because he was always fuming about the past and putting and clanking towards the future.

Rest In Peace JC

A Deer in Front of 4 Headlights

Posted June 13, 2007 by itismark
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Ok, so I was walking the sidewalks of Santiago today which is an experience and it was also raining which adds another layer of complexity to the situation.

I was going back to the office with lunch in one had and my umbrella in the other when I came to an intersection that only had crosswalks on two sides. The problem is that due to lack of drainage those two crosswalks were under about 3-5 inches of flowing water!

So I mentally started to list all of the things that I had to manage to cross the street without getting my feet wet! It went something like this:
– Watch out for those people who think the sidewalk is theirs and you have to move out of their
way!
– Watch the flow of traffic so that I do not get drenched with a wave of street water as a fast
moving car flies by!
- Decide when it is not only safe to go without getting run over, but also without getting soaked!
- Watching my feet (Something you have to do here) so that I don’t step into a six in deep hole
that is filled with water!
- Check the traffic as it is passing through the intersection!

Check, check, check and I was off across the road…….until……I noticed that they guy who was walking beside me wasn’t there any more……I turned to see around what happened to him…..and there they were 4 headlights looking rapidly moving strait towards me! A quick leap and I made it across the last 1 ½ lanes of traffic and the 3 foot wide river running along the side of the road and the 2 cars zoomed by, but not without throwing a wall of water at me.

So I guess I forgot to check both directions in the 2 way street…..Opppps……Hopefully I have a few more guardian angles left for the next time something like this happens!

The Christian Disconnect

Posted June 13, 2007 by itismark
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Is it just me or have Christians (in the U.S.) been living a lie? What I mean is have Christians been living their lives knowing the truth, but somehow living inside of a lie? Is there a disconnect from what we say we believe about the gospel and what we actually live out and expect from ourselves and those around us.

Christ came so that we could have a personal relationship with Him, the God of the universe. Up until his death and resurrection people had to make sacrifices with the help of a priest. They did not have the freedom to go before God themselves, but rather had to depend on the priest for their communication with God, but we can go directly before the God of the universe! In the Old Testament and before Pentecost (in the New Testament) the Holy Spirit did not dwell in the lives of all believers, so God would send the Holy Spirit to His chosen leader, instruct this one person, and then He would speak to His people through this one person. Since all believers have the Holy Spirit, God can and wants to speak to all believers, not just His select few! So this is where the disconnect happens, if Christ created a way for His church/body/believers to approach Him personally with our concerns, problems, needs and desires, then why do we seek out his ‘Priests’ when it comes time to hear from Him?

In Church

Why is it that we allow ourselves and look for a place where ‘church leadership’ hears from God instead of looking for a body of believers that together wants to hear and follow His voice? Dr Henry Balckaby says in Experiencing God, “Because a church is the body of Christ, it functions best when spiritual leaders and members share what they sense God wants the church to be and do. A church needs to hear the whole counsel of God through its spiritual leaders and members. Then it can proceed in confidence and unity to do God’s will.”

Why do we seek a place were we can go to ‘learn more about Him and what He has to say to us’ trusting that whoever is leading/preaching the Sunday service is being led by God instead of trusting God to speak directly to us and believing that sometimes He will choose to speak through other people? Do we really go to church on Sunday expecting God to speak to us through the Holy Spirit, Bible, prayer, circumstances and other believers, not just the person who is preaching that day? Do we go expecting that God may speak through us? Why not?

Why do we seek a place where we are told that we must take certain steps or do certain things so that we can grow in our walk with God or so that God can move in the lives around us instead of asking God to teach us and asking Him where or in whose lives He is working so that we can join Him in what He is already doing? Isn’t that what the Pharisees did in the days of Christ? They set up rules and regulations for the good of the people who they were sheparding in hopes that the people would become better by observing all that was expected of them.

Why do we place more importance on organized religion ‘Church or other programs’ instead of first focusing on our personal and direct relationship with God? I must admit that it is much easier to trust in a program than in God! All too often I find myself wanting to do that ‘good’ thing for God instead of trusting Him to do good things through me. When it is all said and done, I find it much easier to trust myself than Him who made me!

In My Personal Life

How many days do I get up and interact with my family, go to work, do good things, attend church or organizational leadership meeting, and then come back home to spend a few minuets before bed time just to realize that my whole day was self focused! I mean God gave me a brain so that I could gain knowledge and then help others with their problems and find solutions to world evangelism without His direct guidance. Come on, He was involved in my day because I prayed in the morning, asked him to guide my day, used the knowledge He gave me over the course of my life. Don’t you see how I am letting him guide my every step?

I find it sick to see how easily I rationalize my lack of trust, faith, and guidance from the Creator of the universe! God help me to change! How can I expect God to work and do only what He can do when I am in running strait ahead, not even giving a second thought to what He might want to say to me about each task. Do I really believe that He is able to guide and direct me?

I so want to live a life where I am in constant communication with Him, where I sense his leading every step of the way, where I am walking with others who are doing the same. Is it just me or are we all believing a clever lie of the evil one?

Part of the Answer

We have everything we need to walk a different life! To walk a life that is so connected to Him that others could not miss that we are in Him. Imagine what a community of believers would look like if everyone in that community was consistently walking with God each minuet of every day! What kind of impact would we have in our world if we would only stop believing these lies.

There are a few things our Christian culture currently does not have:
1. A personal and vibrant prayer life where EVERY circumstance is placed before Him and He is invited into EVERY aspect of out day!
2. The idea that God desires to speak to each of us individually instead of the view that it all happens inside the church walls. The ‘priests’ can help, but we have direct access to a God who wants to desperately speak to us.
3. The expectation that where there are believers gathered, growth can happen and will happen when Christ is kept in the center.
4 .The view that God doesn’t need more people to do good things for Him, but he needs more people who are in tuned in with what He is doing so that we can join Him there!

Rage against sidewalk smokers blowing smoke in my face!

Posted June 13, 2007 by itismark
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Why is it that whenever I walk the sidewalks of Santiago I have to continually dodge the smokers who are lighting up and puffing smoke is the faces of those beside/behind them? How do their bodies handle the toxins that the cigarettes put into their bodies?

It’s not like it is in the states, where the sidewalks look pretty and everyone stares at the people who actually walk on them as they drive by in their cars. No, the sidewalks in Santiago are used and overused as people scurry from one place to the next! I walk at least a mile of sidewalks a day while consistently dodging the smokers who seem to take delight ravaging their bodies and then mine with their toxic smoke. I seem to have lost the accepting attitude of ‘Just ignore the smoke that was just blown into your face’ and move with the crowd! No, I will not just ignore them! I will fight to cut in front of them, just so that I can find another person who abruptly stops walking, turns their head and blow out their smoke filled lungs right into my face as I try not to bump into them and avoid the other people around me.

Over 40% of Chileans smoke! Over 26% of teenagers smoke at least 2 cigarettes a day, I am talking about kids age 13 and older! How do these people live to be 50? Why are they trying to kill me and my family??????

Rant, Rage, and Rave, I still have to face them as I make my way down the sidewalk tomorrow, but as least I feel better after venting! At least until the next puff of smoke is blown in my face!